Mumbling of a wolf

My soul is now a painful land where you once landed to watch the battle between my heart and my brain. The scars from that battle are still fresh enough that no one ever visited this living flesh and blood the way you did. It’s been a while since you left, but the glorified sun still fools me with your shadow and the stormy nights play with my dreams like it’s a toy. My subconscious mind is continuously thanking the wet pillow for making me dry from inside and thanking that single song for helping me to stay strong, all alone. The echo of your laugh, the familiar smell of your perfume in the air, everything is killing me from inside. It’s like each of them are taking a U- turn to your place to remind me of your presence. I am alive with my incomplete sleep and our dreams attached, fighting with myself to make it a bit better life without you. Sometimes, the telephone of happiness rings in an empty warehouse of memories just to clear the dust from your frame. I have unpo

A cup of coffee wasn’t enough to collect all the courage that was needed to look into his eyes, to get comfortable enough to talk with him. My jacket, as usual, making me look more nervous and restless. My brain, which is usually flooded with all the thoughts and never-ending topics, has now peacefully resigned itself for next one hour. And I am still busy making unsuccessful attempts of finding a single topic to start with. My coffee mug still confused whether to keep that spoon with him or to be alone on its own, without the spoon. In my overall settling process, his eyes still focused on me, observing the struggle which is made to fit in that chair with a coffee mug in my hands and a storm in my head. He said he noticed my nervousness of our first meeting. He said he noticed the marks on my face that are left behind to compliment my puberty. It took him just a few seconds to realize that I am constantly fleeing in my head for a conversation, trying to avoid the eye conta

An organized efforts to give women the same economic, social and political rights as men, is the definition of feminism. The idea of feminism was introduced so that women will be free from all the injustice. They can also get a chance to put their views in any important topic, which was a rare phenomenon back then. Like I guess, since ancient times, women generally had no say in serious matters and that's why Feminism was introduced. And well well, time has finally changed now. Women have equal opportunities as men, they can explore the world if they want to. But recently, feminism has become a point of argument. People are talking and literally fighting on this topic. Is it really required now? Now, when everything has started falling into its place! Actually, the word feminism is misunderstood nowadays. Feminism was meant for the women empowerment, equal earning opportunities and most importantly, political and legal equality. It isn't a race about who will earn more

Wait. What are you doing? You are supposed to be perfect, girl!! Perfect? Yes, be perfect. Wear pretty dresses but make sure you will cover up your body well. Always have that nice and sweet smile on your face. Smile but not that much otherwise they will consider you as you are 'available'. Eat healthy but make sure you don't eat too much because every pound you eat is visible on your body, they'll notice. Stop showing your darkness, your pimples and cover up your face in layers and layers of cream because your fair skin has more value than your true colors and pure heart, my girl. Well, may be 'you have to be perfect because you ARE a girl' is what they meant! What are you doing girl? What you are supposed to do is predefined , predefined in our minds ,why are you not behaving like what we thought you should be? Why are you thinking on your own and acting on your own? You should get perfect grades, get into perfect school & have that perfect b

I stand there still, for years and years, waiting for someone else to show me the path, lead me to the right way.. And then, when the time came, I realized it's not about someone else who can show me my way but it's me who has to travel, wander.. Because this is my destiny I was waiting for years to come to.. It's my happy place I always wanted to reach to. Ohh wait, it's just my body that's standing there and waiting.. But my mind has already traveled through all the possibilities, up n downs, hurdles.. So, I know the way.. It's just a matter of time when I'll stop looking for that someone else who may be doesn't even exists and take my very first step. It's okay if I haven't reached to the top.. It's okay if I haven't conquered it all..!! Because it's not my first time.. I've been here before, I'm here now, I'll be here again!! No matter what outer cage I'll get, I know my inner soul will remain!

I was all set to go to work. All neat and tidy, smart and simple. I was waiting outside of my house for the bus and some children were waiting for their school bus to arrive. They were also ready for the school with their uniforms neatly pressed and hair neatly combed. Few of them were busy talking while few were playing with a puppy. They were making themselves dirty by playing with that dirty puppy. Constantly lifting him and putting him in some cage. Talking and giggling about something. Then I had a closer look at what they were doing and they were actually helping the puppy to get a warm closet. It was a cold night yesterday so the puppy was shivering and those little kids were trying to keep him at some warm place. I felt sorry for what I thought of them but at the same time I knew that they were making themselves dirty, they had school to attend and they can't be this dirty all day.  I put a break to my thoughts when the school bus arrived. All the children wen

In this era,  everyone is busy judging others and trying to make themselves 'eligible' for the so called high class society. Busy to improve themselves and take it to another level. But my friend, the question is, is it self improvement or self hypnosis? You're trying to take a level up or you're actually taking a step back? Why can't you just be yourself and stop pretending. You don't have to be perfect enough so that everybody will like you!! you're a mess but you're a beautiful mess, embrace it. Don't untangle it and transform yourself into a systematic robot, be messy. You can build a boat and cross Pacific in it but let me tell you something, you can't really do that while you're busy trying to sink someone else's ship.  And all this for what? For others? For the people? No. We never really see others, instead we see what they wants us to see.. Their shadows, darker and Emptier. So, may be you should stop running behind som

On the inside I know I don't trust anyone, but here I'm, with you, all alone, away from that glittering world... Finding happiness, sharing sadness, finding silence but at the same time constantly craving for that irk-ness and also trusting you at the very moment. Am I not two faced? On the inside I know God is an image some legend made just to maintain that level of slight terror in everyone's mind but that same inside constantly finds reasons, make conclusions for that blurred image to be true, for it to exist in real. Am I not two faced? I know making differences based on caste and religion is not the right way to live but on the other side I'm also Okay with my parents wanting me to marry someone from the same caste as ours. Am I not two faced? On the inside I know the real beauty is far more than the 3inch makeup layer or those shiny, high class outfits but when have I really waited for a moment and complimented my own beautiful and credulous minded siste

Has it ever happened to you that you're suddenly awake in the middle of the night, leaving all the sweet - romantic - haunted or brave dreams behind where you can have infinite possibilities and boom!! you dive into the real world - out of sleep, with no possibilities, with no super powers. But hey!! What if someone is already staring at you like they had you in all that times, good or bad - sweet or haunted.. You are surrounded by nothing but only that one protector! That one savior who is been waiting for you forever. That feeling of having someone right there for you, is what I want..!! That feeling of my whole being expanding into an unprecedented realms, is what I want..!! Yes You're the moon to my wolf, soulmate to my soul ❤ #SelenophileForLife 💙