Just a bit longer..

There was a time when the cherry blossom tree of my mind lost all its pink and the sun of my imagination lost the ray of last brewing love-bud. The night engulfed you that day and you were invisible to me. I was happy. No, scratch that. I was relaxed. Because I knew whatever I'll try, I can never have you. Better your disappearance than regret of not having you in my life.

And like the spring visits again, your name popped up one day, out of the blue. I knew, rather I was sure that it doesn't mean anything to me now. And it didn't. Until I saw your wine-red lips and snow-white cheeks, until I heard you giggle on your own silly jokes and saw you smile with your eyes. My heart skipped a beat, again. 

Surprisingly, it was you who wanted to spend some time together. We, unknowingly, shared things, sunsets, dinner and the moonlight together. We, unknowingly, walked, laughed, cried and shared silence together. It felt like the infinite sea of love is reaching out to me. You shared your inner and deepest thoughts with me, your problems and sudden plans of outing with me. Remember that trip into the woods on that sunny afternoon? Maybe it was the serene of that place or the cool breeze tickling our faces or maybe it was just you, I don't know, but I wanted the wheels of time to stop there, right there, just for a few hours at least! 

It took me hours to find an adjective for your voice. It isn't deep like a grown man but it also isn't sweet like a teenage boy. Your voice is.. it is.. calm. Calm to my ears and smile to my lips. How can I ever forget the hold of your long fingers, interlocked with mine or you putting your hand on my shoulder while I stood beside you; it was a relief, relief that you BELONG to me. You always felt like running back to a quiet evening after a day full of chaos; a pretty sunset at the beach-side. Or maybe you felt like a long-drive at starry night with no real destination; a cold night at unknown. 

Things kinda escalated a bit quickly. My brain was dumbfounded but my heart was happy. Verrrryyyy happy!!

Your sudden hugs and long-lasting kisses.

The warmth of your fingers and the touch of your petal-like lips.

The song of your breath and your hold of my waist.
The smell of your perfume and tickling at the back of my neck.

I mean, I wasn't dreaming?! 

Sigh.

You know, I am and will always be scared of the word 'but'. It has ruined stories, books and even lives, for an instance.

So... *But, I think I took that 'unknowingly' a bit too far or maybe I forgot that no matter how much you try, you cannot have an entire sea of love just for yourself or maybe I forgot that it's a generation of lost love-stories and hopeless forevers. People find temporary happiness and escapes from their headaches. 
You? You were different! You believed in love-stories and forevers. You had your permanent and you were just taking a break from your permanent with my temporary. 

The only problem is that I knew all of it all along. I knew you were waiting for your full moon while I was a mere new moon day in your life! I knew you were waiting for your cherry blossom. But I thought that maybe, just maybe, if there's even slightest of chance to win you over then why not give it a try? Hopeless heart!!

So every time you ask me not to fall in love with you, maybe it's a bit late for my ears to listen and for my brain to process that because this hopeless heart has already put all its hopes into you.

I know it's not long enough before your love will call you and you'll go running back to it.

I know your forever is just around the corner and mine, well.. there isn't any for me (yet!).

But hey wait?!.. Wait till you are alone, here, with me.

Let me love, just a bit harder!

Let me stay, just a bit longer?!